This week’s topic: Goals & Dreams
Goals is an easy one! Dreams, not so much.
- Buy a house: This is pretty simple. I don’t want to rent forever. Besides that, I’m in a bit of an odd rental situation because the house I rent is on a month to month basis because it is attached to a larger piece of property that the owner hopes to sale. That sale may happen 10 years from now or next week, but that thought is always in the back of my head worrying me. If I bought a house, I’d have a whole new set of worries, but that wouldn’t be one of them.
- Have a child: Wanna know a secret? With each passing day, my desire for a child increases. I don’t feel like I’m at a place in my life that I’m really ready for that, but I also feel like I’m never going to feel ready so I should just jump in. My husband wants kids whenever I’m ready to start popping them out, so I just have to make my mind up on the when. I do want kids one day, I’m just not sure I’m ready for the total life change that would entail. Not to mention the money. Yeah, let’s not think about how much babies cost.
That’s pretty much all my goals for the moment. I’m not looking to achieve much in the near future, just continue to create a life for myself and my husband.
- Own a bookstore: I really don’t think this will ever happen, but it’s always a hope in the back of my head.
That’s pretty much it! I don’t want a whole lot in my life. Sure, I’d love to be able to drop everything and go back to school and study something crazy like Japanese, but even as a teenager I was too pragmatic to do that. Now all I really want is a house to call my own and to not be filled with terror at the idea of bringing a child into this world. That’s not too much to ask, right? What’s the line from that 3 Doors Down song? “And all she wants is just a little piece of this dream, is that too much to ask? With a safe home and a warm bed on a quite little street. All she wants is just that something to hold on to.” That’s me. I don’t want extravagance because I know that is out of my reach. I’m upper lower class/lower middle class with no creative inspiration or skills that would make me a multimillionaire. That sounds pessimistic, but it’s not. I’m being realistic and I’m okay with that. I just want a nice little life.
What about you? What are your goals? Dreams? Let me know in the comments!